today, I got a job.

This is one of my inspirations. 

Jasmine Rafael started off singing on youtube but moved on to posting videos of her dance instead. As (only) a fan and nothing else, I'm not sure if I have to right to say that I am proud of her. She started off as a good dancer, but trust me when I say that as you keep watching her videos, she gets better and better and better. 

It takes someone really brave and passionate to share with the world their talents. To top it all, they work hard to reach their dream and I believe that Jasmine is the happiest at this point of her life. 

Recently, something stopped her from performing. Really, I don't know what happened but I understand how hard it is to have something you love, and something that you worked so hard for, taken away from you. 

That's exactly how I felt this week. Like my dream fashion school was no longer an option because my marks weren't high enough. But what was more important to me in the end was that I still want to be doing fashions and I still can do what I love. Definitely not the way I planned it, but it's okay. 

Seeing a person chase after their dream and not only achieve it, but also continue to live in it and grow in it. There's nothing better. If she can do it, so can I. And if I can do it, so can you. 

This week, I've been going vain and playing dress up to decide what to do for my grad pictures. I know girls who don't wear dresses, but try it. This week, wear a dress. You will be surprised how you feel in one. There's something magical about wearing a dress that always makes a girl feel happy and beautiful. And feeling beautiful is good. Everyone deserves to feel beautiful. 

I know in some places it might be cold as it is still (kinda) winter time. So improvise ! Be creative. Wear some stockings or some tall boots. Look around and you will find lots of ideas. 

Have a great week ladies ! (: 

here's one for my mixed emotions.

If there's one thing I've learned while growing up is that if you worked hard for something, you'll never fail at it until you proclaim that you have. Sure, some things might say otherwise, but it's not true. Your accomplishments cannot be shown through a piece of paper, but instead it's shown through your actions.

Today, I got back my diploma results.

I had to tell myself over and over again before hearing my marks that if it is bad, I have other options, I can still do something about that mark. But when I heard it, I was stuck. I really didn't know what to feel. Around me, people were happy because they passed the test. But I wasn't aiming for that. I knew I would pass. So I sat around. Did things while my mind still ran through different emotions.

Knowing that you are good at something does not make you proud. But when you use that confidence to show other people that you are better than them, that's when being good does not matter anymore.

It is such a big world, and each day it is growing. And in this world, people are always competing against each other to make it to the top. Not everyone will reach it. Sometimes, hard work doesn't pay off like you hoped so. But to be able to push and carry yourself to try to reach that point, that's what matters. Don't give up is so damn cliche, but if you listen to it, it helps.

No, I didn't meet the mark that I need for post-secondary. I did pass. What I'm proud of is that I worked very hard this year, and even the people around me saw that. Getting a bad grade is unfortunate but it's not the end. I want to go into fashion school, and to say that I have failed the first step into it is not the truth. I will fail when I tell myself to give up and not go to fashion school. There's so much that I can achieve in this world. I know that I am good enough and I know that I can do it. My results may not allow me to get far under the watch of prestigious schools and top of the list designers, but as long as I believe that I can go further, nothing can and nothing will stop me.

my hair will never stay curly.

Is there anyone out there that is still a fan of Blackberry? Because, even as technology is getting much, much better, I am in love with my Blackberry. Now don't get me wrong. I have had gazillion problems with my Blackberry and I feel sad for the people that has multiple Serena on their BBM. But that's the thing I love about Blackberry. BBM. Yes, there's whatsapp and that other one for the iPhones but let me be one of them to state the obvious : whatsapp sucks.

I am once again changing my Blackberry because my older one's battery life is not lasting as long as it used to. It's old, I understand. One of the phones that I am willing to trade my Blackberry for, or even pay a big price for is a (red) Samsung Galaxy S3. Have you see that beauty? It has a blinking light like the Blackberry when messages or calls come in and I think that feature is super handy (especially when you don't want teachers to know you're using your phone in class).

So enough about boring technology. I need to find a hairstyle for my grad pictures. I have straight, black Asian hair. It is so straight that curling it doesn't do much. I really want to look natural and just not like I'm trying too hard (even though I am) in my pictures. My first plan was a side bun, but now I'm starting to wonder if it's a good idea. I am definitely not one of the best hairstylist around, neither do I have patience to style my hair and I am not paying to get my hair done. Period. So, anyone wanna give me ideas?

Now, I know my blog is lacking pictures and I promise that it will come up soon. But here's the fashion challenge for the week : wear something that makes you feel sexy. Now, when I say sexy, I do not mean what the world thinks is sexy, but what you feel good in. I sometimes like to wear something a little body hugging and it makes me feel sexy. So for you, it might be a top with a lower cut, or a something sleeveless or something shorter than you usually wear. All I want is for you to feel sexy and good in it, and that way, I promise that when you step out, people will think the exact thing.

Hope to see some pictures of this challenge. Have a great week guys !

snakes scare me.

Does anybody know that it is Chinese New Year this weekend? Well, it hasn't been a big deal since I move to Canada, but my family has some friends and family over right now for a reunion dinner !

This year is the year of the snake. I hate snakes.

So, every week I plan to put up a challenge for my readers, and the challenge will be fashion related. It's about trying something new and feeling good about it. I know some things people may not have in their closets, and have to maybe spend a little bit of money for it. Good news is, this is fashion. It's almost like literature. It is what you interpret it to be. Some of these challenges will be as simple as putting on something old that you haven't worn in a long time, or as adventurous as getting a very bold piece of garment.

I'm going to be real nice today. Since it's Chinese New Year, wear something red. Come support my people ! It's not that hard, but I know that red is a colour that many people stay away from.

Don't be afraid to stand out and catch people's attention. Don't be afraid of getting noticed. If you think red is not your colour, trust me and try it again. What you see in yourself is not what other people see. You probably will get wonderful compliments about it !

Have a good week people and I hope to see some pictures of people rocking out the red !

cool people don't introduce themselves right away.

Hello. 

I am Serena. You see that name and hear it plenty in the news, but yet majority of the people in my life have gotten it wrong somehow at least once. It is incredible. I am a fashion enthusiast, and I have always loved writing. Recently, my family moved to Canada. I'm a fresh off the boat (hah. geddit? boat?) 

There are so many things that I love about life. One of them is chicken nuggets. Another is sewing. 

I absolutely hate insects that are bigger than ants. And I am still afraid of the dark. My parents never spoiled me as a kid, and so I was taught to live with my fears. The dark is definitely one that I never got over. When I grow older and get married, I will beg my husband for a night light. 

Painting nails is a tedious job for me. 

During my whole lifetime I have been to four places on this earth - Malaysia, Vietnam, Singapore and Canada. Oh yeah, you definitely don't need a picture to know I'm Asian. 

This weekend is Chinese New Year and I am excited to be receiving money and eating oranges. 

I am also very excited about this blog. This is my newest project and I plan to carry on with it for as long as I can. Be excited with me ! 

And please love me because I love all of you. 

Bye. 

my mind is racing.

Hello. This is a blog. It's not about fashion, it is about building your confidence and self-esteem through fashion. Many people don't realize it but fashion has such a strong influence on us all. And I believe it can also influence you.

This blog is designed because of my love for people and my love for fashion. Just like fashion, there are just so many different designs of people. Everybody is different in their own way but majority is scared of being different. No one says you have to. But what you need to be is the person that you are comfortable with, a person that does not question themselves each week about who they are.

One of the most beautiful things about people is realizing that they were born a tiny baby. And when a person is a tiny baby, they are as innocent as can be. But as soon as they start to understand small bits of the world (and I mean small bits like words and movement) they start to get influence and their innocence slowly washes off.

No one will ever be perfect in anybody's eyes. 

As much as you try, people always try to find faults in you. People will try to find something to talk about and something to spread around. So why try to please them? If you want to be accepted, you need to breathe and let your heart help form the person you truly are.

Don't be afraid of the world. 

The world will never be afraid of you, so there is absolutely no reason to be afraid of you. Live each day as it comes and remember that you are not like anybody else and that that is very special.