here's one for my mixed emotions.

If there's one thing I've learned while growing up is that if you worked hard for something, you'll never fail at it until you proclaim that you have. Sure, some things might say otherwise, but it's not true. Your accomplishments cannot be shown through a piece of paper, but instead it's shown through your actions.

Today, I got back my diploma results.

I had to tell myself over and over again before hearing my marks that if it is bad, I have other options, I can still do something about that mark. But when I heard it, I was stuck. I really didn't know what to feel. Around me, people were happy because they passed the test. But I wasn't aiming for that. I knew I would pass. So I sat around. Did things while my mind still ran through different emotions.

Knowing that you are good at something does not make you proud. But when you use that confidence to show other people that you are better than them, that's when being good does not matter anymore.

It is such a big world, and each day it is growing. And in this world, people are always competing against each other to make it to the top. Not everyone will reach it. Sometimes, hard work doesn't pay off like you hoped so. But to be able to push and carry yourself to try to reach that point, that's what matters. Don't give up is so damn cliche, but if you listen to it, it helps.

No, I didn't meet the mark that I need for post-secondary. I did pass. What I'm proud of is that I worked very hard this year, and even the people around me saw that. Getting a bad grade is unfortunate but it's not the end. I want to go into fashion school, and to say that I have failed the first step into it is not the truth. I will fail when I tell myself to give up and not go to fashion school. There's so much that I can achieve in this world. I know that I am good enough and I know that I can do it. My results may not allow me to get far under the watch of prestigious schools and top of the list designers, but as long as I believe that I can go further, nothing can and nothing will stop me.